to my mei. thanks for offering me a listening ear. (i really didnt think u would read my blog, cause i havent updated for such a long time.. i just wanted to vent out my frustrations and clear up my tots.) but i'm really glad that u actually went to check if i updated my blog! haha
Anyway, everything is ok now. we had a long talk. many things happened (which i will tell u next time ok?) and i decided i need him more than i thot i would. so we got back together.. kind of. i guess u can say that we arent as close, but i guess, relationships is not that important to me now. i want to concentrate on my studies. so isnt our relationship perfect? we are so called a couple, but we don really spend time together.
i really want to catch up on my friends anywae (which i don't quite have time to do) feel so bad=X sorry! =X
Anywae. i have decided never to cry again. [ok, sounds impossible because of the never] but i'm seriously gg to try. Slap me on my back if i do ok?
thou i have my reasons when i do cry[which my close friends will understand],i guess the miscommunication is something i would give up crying for.
For my close friends who understand me, thanks for always supporting me=)
to those who question my actions on crying for whatever reason, u probably don't understand me. i wont blame u.. cause i didnt explain the reason why to u, cause U make me feel i shouldnt =P *woops
29 july. the day we become best friends for a week.
yet. i still have questions..
should i just save myself all this agony and ask him?
does our happy past times mean nothing at all to him?
well. i'm sure i DEFINITELY will be fine in a day or 2 if it doesnt...
on the rocks
a million questions i feel like asking..
if only u knew..
everyone feels that we are just the perfect couple like nothing could go possibly wrong,
no one seems to know or even guess...
'there is nothing wrong between us, or is there?'
for days, feelings and thoughts have driven me mad
we have drifted apart
do u?
i act as if it was alright, everything's alright,
but its really hurting me inside
do u?
i know that u care but i feel that u don't
do u?
i feel like u have given up hope,
given up us
given me up.
ur actions make me feel this way
do u?
i tried to salvage us time and again
i am tired of trying on my own
do u?
why has it turned out this way?
what should i do?
i'm lost
do u?
should i continue, i ask myself
i want to, if u do
do u?
i want to believe ur words,
believe there is still hope
do u?
i wonder if u feel that there are problems too
do u?
i love the old you
do u?
i look back to OUR past happy times
and not want to let go
but i question 'do i have to?'
do u?
what would u do if u knew u were this close to losing me...
went back to nhss today to sell food to raise funds for funfair! =) its was a totally enjoyable experience! not only i get to skip swim PE, [which i was totally overjoyed yesterday cause i didnt have to go buy my swimsuit yet] but i could skip the whole day of lessons!! yeah. no boring tutorials and lectures.
yup, so we left ac right after the assembly. the guard just let us walk out of the school and didnt even bother to check our permission slip, until we asked him if he needs to see it. we reached school and everyone changed into school t-shirts, all except me cause i didnt bring any extra shirt. so i called my rui hon to bring an extra shirt for me. he brought his ac orientation shirt which was L size! haha. it looks like pyjamas! which was not very surprising because even an S size shirt looks big on me.
sales was breeze and it was really fun selling food to my juniors! some of them were very cute.. especially my choir juniors! they could still rmb me! they were like 'u are claressa right?' i was so happy especially because they were lower secondary and i didnt expect them to remember me. and also because i couldnt recognise some of them. but suddenly i feel proud to have been part of nh choir again! =) yeah. haha.
my council juniors and my mei were also a joy! =) they were supportive. *3 cheers for them* =) but i was the most touched when 1 of my juniors asked if she could buy a cup of corn and give it to me to eat=) so nice of her! [though i didnt eat the corn in the end] haha.
anyway i had a great sense of achievement from the whole event. managed to sell everything we brought and make a profit! =) yeah. had a whole lot of fun through this process too! thanks nhhs for this experience! =)
Ytd was my mom's and sufen's birthday! HappY biRthdaY!! [even thou i dont think they will get to see my blog] haha. anyway, we went to suntec's NYDC to celebrate my mom's birthday. the service was really good! *gives 2 thumbs up* =) the waiters and waitresses were very nice and helpful, even thou they took our order wrongly, and made us end up with an extra pizza. the food servings were comparatively large, so we didnt manage to finish the food. let alone order mudpies for dessert [they all look so yummilicious!] haha. i'm gg to try them one day soon! =) haha. yeap. so we shopped at suntec for a while. most of the shops where closed by that time. but just as well, cause otherwise i will be buying loads of stuff. haha. hmm, but i still didnt go back empty handed, managed to get something for myself=) yeah.
Party!well, today's the 3rd day of CNY. my parents had no plans in the evening, so i managed to convince them to let me go to his friend's party. ok, i didn't really exactly told them the whole truth.. as in, i said it was my friend's party [or i think they wouldn't let me go], when in actual fact, i dont know a single thing about the birthday boy=Xyup. As i had to leave early, we met at 6 plus to go 'help out' [didnt help much though] haha. the DJ came at 8 plus. just before the party officially started. the party had a really slow start. it really didnt feel like a party at first, but as they turned of the lights and switched to disco lights, the atmosphere changed. people started dancing and drinking.. it was really cool though i didnt really dance. wasnt into the mood yet. if only i could stay longer and if i knew more ppl there, i would have danced and enjoyed myself more. However, on the whole, i think the party was CooL! =) hopefully there will be more of these kind of parties!
First day of Chinese New Year
This is my most jammed-packed CNY chu yi. Really enjoyed it=)
it started off the usual way with me going to my eldest uncle's house at west coast. played a little majong with my cousins and aunt. didn't play with money though.[luckily, or i think i would have lost money] haha. yup.
dropped by at his grandma's house for a while as it was just 2 blocks away. haha. his relatives kept saying i was very shy. haha. what can i do? i am always in front of people i don't know. haha yeah. so i left when my cousins started hurrying me to go to my aunt's house. flipped through the old photo albums kept by my aunt and found pictures of me and my cousins when i was very young=) my baby photos where there too! haha.
from there we went to my cousin, kenny's house. watshed 'into the blue' there. nice movie. jessica alba's hot and pretty=) can see why all the guys keep saying so.. haha
after the movie, i went back to my uncle's house just like for 5 minutes, then we went off to eat CHEESE PRATA =) i love the banana cheese prata and mee goreng there! i love it so much i miss it sometimes! hahahaa..
then my closest cousin, Charissa invited me to go bowling with her friends. her friends are super funny! especially one of her friend who smiles until u cant see his eyes! haha. yep so we bowled until 12am when my dad called, then my cousin drove me back to my uncle's house. i think its so cool that she can drive! =) i'm gg to learn driving as soon as i'm allowed to! =) yeah!
Chinese New Year Eve.
it was the normal dinner with my extended father's side family. the dinner was really quick! the dishes were like served in threes.. which was pretty weird. but all well, i just picked one out of 3 each time.. haha.
yeah. so i left for chinatown after dinner. it was soooo crowded! its like a water trying to flow through a clogged up sink! *imagine* haha. anyway, i was there pretty early. it was only 11, so we squeezed our way through the tough crowd [everyone was like just shoving and pushing each other] we managed to go up to this cooling carpark on the 3rd level to watch the firecrackers and fireworks. the view there was cool. we were looking down at the crowd squeezing like a sardine in a can, while we enjoyed the amazingly cool view with plenty of space and a refreshing breeze.
it was really funny cause the fireworks at marina bay [i think] went off like 10 seconds before the clock at chinatown struck 12. so it was like,
[ppl at chinatown: 10, 9, 8,...
fireworks at marina bay: 'boom, boom, boom']
haha. yeah. and the fireworks at chinatown was quite pathetic. it was so short! last year's fireworks was so much longer. but all well, i still enjoyed it.=)
Happy belated birthday angela!
haha. had a wonderful time with u on ur birthday! its a good thing the cake i made for u didnt cause anyone to have a stomachache! hahaha=P heh.. was so scared it would.. haha.. but i must say my cake did look as nice as it tasted rite? haha.. jk jk.. hmmm.. hope u enjoy ur CNY in indonesia! oh yeah i really love ur laptop! its so cool! how i wish i could borrow it for a day.. hahahaha! jk jk=)
Ytd was ac's CNY celebrations.. had choir after tt.. so i couldnt go back to nan hua.. thou i wanted to.. so many ppl from my class went..=X
choir was long but i must say the Janger song is quite fun to sing especially with all the expressions.. haha.. but i really didnt like the sectional meeting after choir.. i kinda feel like the meeting is really redundant.. and especially having it after such a long draining practice, i cant help but think its a little retarded.. cant they make it short and sweet if they absolutely need to have it? okok.. i don know.. so i shall not say anything anymore..
yup so.. after choir, i went home first to change before gg to meet my secondary school friends at marina south for dinner.. i asked them to go first cause they were already on the MRT when i was on my way home.. yup.. so i had to make my way down there myself, which i really didnt want to.. so i called kenneth to accompany me there.. which he did thou he was sick =) haha.. thanks=)
i arrived an hr later then everyone.. haha.. yup.. then we saw fireworks halfway thru our dinner.. the fireworks was really pretty though it only lasted about 5 minutes.. it would definitely have been nicer if it was longer.. yeah.. we also celebrated my dear gor, boon long's birthday with a choc cake.. Happy birthday gor! yeah..
hmmm..
hi again everyone!
suddenly have the inspiration to blog.. haha.. well, so here i m..
wow.. 2006 has been a great yr so far..
well acjc is SUPERB! Trinity rocks the house down! my OG is sooo cool! i totally love everyone. its like, our og is always having sooo much fun when others have already dispersed.. i hope we can stay like tt forever!
hmm i think my dear Trinity will not be the same without anyone..
our ogr..
Jared! happy belated birthday! hope u like the cake i made! oh yeah, stop bullying me ok! haha.. jk jk
yong yong..aka Ha nah... haha.. good luck with ur dear! thanks for sharing with me and listening to my prob too.. and also accompanying me to u know where.. haha.. u rock gal!
Joanne.. thanks for all ur infectious laughter and creative games! and for always being soooo enthu!
Joshua.. haha. my fellow choir buddy! so glad for u tt u got in as well! haha.. must come and talk to me in choir ok? i'm like always so bored in alto..cause i don reaally know anyone yet..
zhi xin.. thanks for all ur superbly nice drawings! u draw soooo nice! must teach me one day k?? =)
Meng kiat, Ryan.. hahha.. my dance partner.. hmm.. thanks for helping me with my dance last time [thou u didnt help much] haha.. jk jk.. but yeah.. all ur crappy jokes... haha.. eh.. i feel like dancing the dance with the og again.. then record in my camera as memory.. want want? haha
Chin Hua... hmm.. our drama elective guy.. we will always rmb ur cute drama actions.. the 'watever' as u roll ur eyes... ahahhahaha.. so funny! always make us laugh
Rachel.. good luck with ur ryan =) haha.. ur signature cute laughter will always be rmbed.. haha
Byran.. yeah i will always rmb u.. the one who poured 2 buckets of water on my during orientation and spattered mud all over me for nothing! and also the one who sprayed water on me using meng kiat's bottle. and also for ps-ing the whole og to plat soccer in acsi when we were supposed to go to ur house.. good job ar! hahha.. jk la..
Geogina..thanks for everything! for always being there with our og.. =)
Jocelyn.. my fellow nan huarian=) thanks for helping me with my god bro thingy last time.. haha.. and for the fun and laughter u brought to our og.. haha..
Charissa and Sean.. our scandal in the group.. hahahha.. ok ok.. i shan't say anything else to expose both of u.. haha.. enjoy urselves! hope u both have a great time! wish u all the best!
anywae, i really hope everyone will still stick together even after the o's result come out.. i hope we wont forget the special times we had together.. all the laughter we shared.. cause i know i will nv! =) take care everyone! i love u all!
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